Saturday, crying day?

4th June



You must feel weird about this title.
Saturday is just like a "party day", why I was cried?

Last Saturday was holiday so baby boy and I had some plan.
We plan to out of town for shopping or maybe just go for some nice food once he reach home.
But he was late because the traffic jam all the way from Singapore to Johor Bahru.

Friends got asked me out for breakfast but I was too lazy to go out with them.
So I rejected their invite and staying at home.
Was too bored a whole noon...and finally........BOOM!
Bored till cried.
Everyone said I was so "cute" "funny" "unbelievable" because they never knew a people can bored till cried! Lol.   I can't believe it too!

Just wanna simple share this tiny little funny or maybe unbelievable things on here.XD

My puffy eyes after one and half hours of crying. fml

我踏出了这一步

我就会去面对

I don't care about the ending.

At least I'm trying to talk to you.

Like you said,

hope I can understand you and of course you can understand me too.

Peace.

New Hair Curler 32mm

Is it ok?lol

I bought a new 32mm hair curler.

Had a long time I didn't set my hair and I realised I totally forgot how to curl my hair.   fml

Doesn't matter, just burn my fingers few time.  XD

watched Real Steel with baby boy and Seejia just now.

It's awesome!

I cried because it's touching!

"Excite mode" ON when I was watching movie.XD

Screaming! Exciting! (of course I didn't scream out, just inside my heart)

Why there's always "fake" in social?

I mean "friend", she/he look and act like you friend/buddy but actually she/he is not think like what I think.

I really treat all of them like my best friend.

Moody + Disappointed

Suddenly miss my babe Nelissa :(

Down down down

5 days I didn't update my blog.

What I am busy for?

hmmm,actually I didn't busy for anything.

I'm just worries much about my failure to find work.

I choose job and job choose employee too.

Interviewed two or three job already and they decided to hired me too but it's had so many problems came out after that...
Salary problem.   *applied a job at a law office.She decided to hire me and I don't know she got cheat me or not..the salary is so...and she keep saying their work is really stress,have tons of paper work need to follow,and I need to what that case about too...bla blaa blaa...

Transport problem.   *still the same law office but I'd applied that job is near by my boyfriend's workplace.She called me on the next day and asked me to go to another law office which located at street(bandar).I'm just like wtf ! I need to find these job that near by boyfriend's workplace so he can fetch me go to work and knock off.and you still asking me without manners!Please,you are a lawyer.She was like super unfriendly. Super sad after refused this job :(

Working hours.   *Some job need start to work at 8 o'clock in the morning.I know it's normal to clerk but not match with my time.As I say,everything need to follow boyfriend's time.WTF!!! Today got an interview too.They write they business hour is Mon-Fri 9.30am-6.30pm Sat 9.30am-4.30pm Sun OFF .Wow,so nice!Almost match our time!After I'd interviewed just know about that...they start to work at 9.15am and must reach there earlier,knock off at 7.30pm not 6.30pm.Saturday knock off time is 7.30pm too not 4.30pm. speechless. They decided to hire me too,but now I still can't decide I want accept this job or what...




Guys,I'm really going mad.
I do nothing.
Feel so helplessness and useless.
What should I do?

终于知道是什么原因了。

今天 我发现了。

为什么我对做工那么反感

为什么我想永远都呆在家里

为什么每次要面试的时候我都会压力的无法呼吸

今天我懂了
因为每一次面试都要痛一次!
每一次都要掀开我最痛的伤疤!
今天她的每道问题都像在拿到刺我
我回答的声音哽咽
不是因为我紧张
是想哭


有机会的话
我真的会出国
至少可以让我忘记我的过去!

200611

My mood is down like hell now...
I feel so bad...really really bad...
I wanna cry but no tear...
I wanna shout but no place...
I wanna talk but no one...

I think I will feel more happy if I'm not in the world anymore.
Maybe I shouldn't write these EMO things in my blog and influence readers's mood too.
I want write all my happy,unforgetable things in my blog...
But I feel that I'm such a failure today...
I'd gave up my job just for that interview...
But what I get?It's nothing...
Maybe you were so busy today...maybe you had no time to answer my calls...tons of "maybe"..
It make me feel so lost and failure today.



Teachers always told us "Failure teaches success".
But they never telling us about the success process...

250411

Always don't have time to blog on weekend.
Sorry guys :(

I feel bad recently and I haven't find out my problem.
Friends?   Nope.
Boyfriend?   Nope.
Family?   Nope.

I don't know why.
But I heard something from my mum and I felt so bad after heard that.
We feel Grandmum's health is not in good condition recently.
I'm so sad when heard this from mum.
I think no one can stay clam when their family's members facing some problem like mine.
I even don't know what can I do...
So emo when thinking and blogging about this :(



People,please love and treat them with filial piety.

Picha!

My recently photo

JiaLe

Janet

Four of us acting the silly faceXD

Took by baby boy

Jewel

You know what,
my harddisk got some problems.

Still can't fix it

All my important things inside!

And now I'm worry till wanna vomit

My Chinese New Year's photo about 600++

my 2010's old photo too!

Gosh!!!

Hope my harddisk will be all right.

Stay tunes

A F Day

Female pain make me crazy.
Female pain make me cry.
Female pain make me weak.
Female pain make me pale.
Female pain make me didn't eat a whole day till just now.

What you get from these complaints?

Yes!!I HATE "Sangrar(Spanish) Day"!

Pain till I can't stand it anymore.

'cause my APO-NAPRO-NA —— pain killer for female pain was ran out!!

I called baby boy even if I knew he is sick and.haven't get well.    *sorry bb

Fortunately,baby boy came my home accompanied me and bought pain killer for me.

Thanks baby boy so much ♥

 
 

 

 
 
BTW,
baby boy haven't get well yet.
Three days already,so worry about him.

Need to bring him to TCM(Traditional Chinese Medicine) there tomorrow.

He went clinic twice already but still does not see any mend at all.

We still have a dinner on Sunday night.

Hope he can get well soon :(

God bless him.

 

我只想用粗话来做标题

你所谓的在乎
我们看不到 但是我们知道
但是你的举动 让我们觉得你不像你
你为别人改变还是别人改变你?

我们几时没有迁就过你
同样的你们也一直在迁就我的坏脾气
但是 说真的
我现在发脾气前 都会为你们想过
是不是应该发脾气 是不是我自己脾气又来了
你有没有想过的?
你的态度 变了

每次你生气
都是大家在哄你
你有没有为大家想过?
如果这几年我们都不哄你
是不是我们早就没有朋友做了?

我们彼此都很伤心烦恼的
其实只是一件小事
为什么你要弄到那么大?
是不是一定要我们做坏人?
真的是我们坏吗?

吃个饭唱个歌 就闹到这么大件事
开心吗?
你们说去哪里就跟你们说一下
那你们去哪里时
有跟我们说过吗?
简单的
你们在说别人之前
拜托先想想自己做过什么

我觉得我们大家的友情
好像只是考“都认识那么多年了”
这句话在维持
我们从来没有Heart to heart过
尤其是你
其实除了惠君
没有人了解你(我不知道小穗舒仪了不了解)

我们很多事情都搞不懂
也许哪天你可以解释一下
我不希望你变成我们想象的那个人
我也希望你看清你身边交的是什么朋友
那些奸诈狡猾 人面兽心的 最好远离

我不喜欢拖泥带水 直话直说
现在我对你的感觉是
【我不爽你。】
简简单单的四个字
不爽你的原因时为什么你要把事情闹大
我们的头脑也有很多个问号
所以我非常需要你把事情弄清楚

其实那天去BBQ我已经相当没有事儿了
可是你却给我死鱼脸
我没办法对着你的死鱼脸
所以就当你透明了(不好意思，你把这段话想成搞笑版的就有我的style了)

我很羡慕别人的sistership
因为我们没有

我们的问题在于心

没有人讨厌你 生气你
一切的一切
都是你自己过不了你自己那关



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NoNoNo

Arghhh~
Why why why why...
I'm so lazy to update my blog.
I don't want like this><

Sometimes,
too much things and event need to blog will let you feel so lazy to blog it.




Swim with Yeehan tomorrow:))
Will blog it tomorrow??
hahas



Annyeong
Goodnight.

13122010

Hey guys,
I will go KL in this three days.


Didn't feel happy actually.
Because I'll go with 2 couple ==
I thought we can having our girl's time,but......
I was wrong.
Haiz,just forget it.


Shopping alone.

I think I can do it!!

24-11-2010 DEEP feeling.

Went out with babe N after she knock off .
Baby boy fetch us went to Mamak stall yamcha.


Chat a lot with babe N today.
Somethings I can't forget.   *Hate it
Recall past events with DEEP feeling.


I knew,
The past has vanished like wind.
We need to lay it all down.
But Idk why she is keep worrying me.
I means wherever I went,whatever I did and whoever I knew.
She always around me.
When I know new friends,she will go to know them too.  
When I took some funny photo with my baby boy,......YUP,she'll did it too.
*why?I really want to shake off you.


Hahasss!Whatever!
Just wanna share my feeling with you all:))


Sunshine tomorrow!!!
Cheers  ❤

MOODY-ing

MOODY-ING

GIVE ME SOME SPACE AND TIME

AND I WILL BE BACK SOON

Heartache

If you can't do,don't want promise me.
I hate people lie me!!



HE let me felt so heartache.
HE promised me,but he didn't make it come true.

His family was the most important one!
I know it's sure.


I'm so hurt!
Because he always forgot,what he's promise me!(maybe he knows,just try to forget it.)
Few month ago ady.
I know,I know I'm not important anymore.








Girls,always cry alone.
We knows that.

:'(

What I was done?
I don't know why you don't want "choi" me.
Are you angry about the album of webcam?
Ok.
A big "SORRY" to you !

I got think over before I upload.
I asked N and she's said you won't angry.
But now?
Don't know why will become like this.

I'm so so so so so so SORRY!!!

I deleted already!

I feel...

Arghh!
Feeling my wisdom teeth back again><
My Gosh!
I don't want~

But I can't blame anyone...
Because I keep ate such food like fried chicken,chocolate and etc which fried,heat and spicy.
Why I'm so stupid~~~~~~~
I don't want wisdom teeth~
Go away from my mouth!

...

Felt I was useless again...
All my friends got their life goals except ME.
What's the meaning of life to me?
I don't know.


Don't know what I want and what I was thinking.
How annoying!

STRESS

I'm so stress !!
That feeling come back again!
Again and Again.
I really don't know what can I do.
I don't know why I will feel so stress.
I want the girl who always smile and can solve every difficulties herself.


Who can tell me what can I do?

The only one I got is SING.

Unwilling

Unwilling Unwilling ><
One more day
I got to work even if just few days (28/7 ~ 9/8)
Parkson got offer 80% ! I wanna go!But no time to shop if got work...
Remember I said I'm work 28/7 ~ 9/8 last time?
Actually it's a mistook==
Auntie so blur...told me the fair till 9/9..The margin was too evident loh=="
But I no need to worry about Ours anniversary and Jacky's birthday anymore,LOLX.


Maybe will go out interview another job tomorrow.
If I got the job,maybe I'll turned down the part time job.
Do whatever you like.


So GOD sure want to bless me ok~
Please~XD




Go out with Camie Lele today.
Update photo tomorrow.
Nite all.
♥